Jeux d'enfants

I'm sorry

2011-04-04T05:28:00.000+08:00

I’m sorry of being so emotional
I’m sorry that I cry for you
I’m sorry because I can’t live without you

I’m sorry for my selfish love
I’m sorry for not caring enough
I’m sorry for my restlessness
I’m sorry for the losing grace

Sorry for not giving you any happiness
Sorry because it’s my disgrace

I’m sorry for thinking of you so very much
I’m sorry I always miss your touch
I’m sorry of being so mad about you
I’m sorry for my every blue

I’m sorry and sorry again
I’m sorry of being insane
But believe me that I love you

x

Screw you.

2011-03-30T00:35:00.001+08:00

Unless you know every last detail of my complicated life, don’t you dare try judging me.

One month.

2011-03-28T07:25:00.000+08:00

4 ABS. I CAN DO IT!

-

2011-03-28T06:50:00.001+08:00

I was controlling, and bitchy, and vibrant, and alive. I was hated, and loved, and ready to take on the world.

Projects overload

2011-03-28T06:45:00.001+08:00

Field trip

2011-03-24T12:06:00.001+08:00

I love you girls forever x

2011-03-22T04:00:00.000+08:00

20th March

2011-03-21T05:53:00.000+08:00

Things have been happening for no rhyme or reason, absolutely no rhythm to its madness. It's a day to remember.

HAVOC HAVOC HAVOC!

2011-03-21T05:49:00.002+08:00

Our bizarre morning face!

Alert: Photo spam (Photos not in order)

2011-03-14T04:14:00.011+08:00

I know I don't normally post so many photos at one go, but this 3d2n chalet is a day to remember. I never had so much fun for a very long time.

Soccer nights make my day.

2011-03-13T07:31:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Yuyu! : ) < 3

2011-03-12T20:14:00.002+08:00

Today.....

2011-03-10T00:46:00.001+08:00

Steamboat/Nabins/Singapore Sling x

The day the boys went Taiwan x

2011-03-10T00:39:00.006+08:00

2 person going off to Taiwan for 3 weeks, 18 people sent them off.

Time passes, people change.

2011-03-10T00:33:00.000+08:00

Sometimes they change for the better, and sometimes they morph into these completely diverse people and you have no idea where the person you used to know so well went. In these cases you have two options: either fight to the bone to get back the person you used to know, and let disagreement widen the divide between you, or just accept the fact that the days you held so dear have gone forever and move on, keeping with you always the precious memories that will inevitably fade away x

Castle Walls

2011-03-03T16:42:00.000+08:00

Everyone thinks that I have it all
But it's so empty living behind these castle walls
These castle walls
If I should tumble if I should fall
Would any one hear me screaming behind these castle walls
There's no-one here at all, behind these castle walls

Dear Mom and Dad

2011-02-28T16:19:00.001+08:00

Save your fucking marriage.

Maxxie from Skins

2011-02-24T03:50:00.000+08:00

Just the beginning

2011-02-24T03:42:00.001+08:00

I’m the one who runs around trying to make everyone laugh and smile and happy. But how can I do that when I have to force my own happiness, off camera? I’m alone, but I’m not. I’m lost, but I know exactly where I am. I’m defeated, but the game hasn’t really started yet.

This is the end, but it’s just a brand new beginning x

> : (

2011-02-22T02:32:00.001+08:00

Mud Slingers

2011-02-22T02:27:00.000+08:00

People that pull themselves up by pulling others down. They love to gossip, criticize, judge, and denigrate anyone who ever had the misfortune of spending time with them. The only loyalty these denizens of the unconscious worlds have is to their own pain, which they feed by involving everyone they can in their mud slinging.

Snowball lovable boy.

2011-02-22T01:41:00.001+08:00

Y, why

2011-02-21T02:35:00.001+08:00

On repeat mode.

This boring routine life cycle

2011-02-21T01:40:00.001+08:00

I need new memories, not to replace the old ones, but to add to the book. I want to remember these friends I have now and the times we have together. Maybe, just maybe, we can be carefree together in our grown up, responsible state of mind. Now that people grow and change, and the friends I grew up with usually aren’t around in the end. Different friends along the road that represent very different times of my life.

Say Hi to my new toy! MacBookPro!

2011-02-21T01:40:00.000+08:00

Till then x

M

2011-01-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

Why why?

2011-01-05T00:22:00.002+08:00

Life is too short to hold grudges and harbor bitterness, cherish the people who have been with you and are always with you. Friends are always friends no matter what, every friendship goes through its good and bad phases.

11:11PM

2011-01-02T23:11:00.002+08:00

I haven't been blogging much. I haven't been spending my nights sleeping at home for a month or so. Too preoccupied with spending time with M, camping over at his crib. Life was dull, a routine - but I'm satisfied and happy with life. Maybe because I've got M by my side, growing fat with me, watching dramas with me, sleeping our lives away. Life was motherfucking awesome.

It feels kind of weird without you.

Thoughts

2010-11-23T13:04:00.000+08:00

In my quieter moments, I some times reflect on the fact that we generally take the people we love the most for granted.

I love you Mom and Dad x

Happy 21st Birthday Sister!

2010-11-23T01:01:00.003+08:00

You may be a bitch at times, but yknow I still love you! x

M

2010-11-23T00:54:00.002+08:00

(Back)
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(Front)

Made by yours truly. I started from scratch. Even the interior! Proud of myself :)

Fetish for stickers and printed papers

2010-11-18T22:00:00.003+08:00

Absence indeed makes the heart grow fonder

2010-11-18T21:27:00.003+08:00

I miss those good times - we were carefree, and we get to meet every single day with no attachments and commitments. Now you've got to serve NS and I've got school. It was hard at first, it put a strain in our relationship. It wasn't easy for us to come this far, all the ups and downs. I'm glad we pulled through x

Love me if you dare/Jeux d'enfants

2010-11-18T04:01:00.005+08:00

Julien: And that’s how we won the game. Together happy. And deep in concrete, we finally shared our childhood dream, the dream of an endless love.

x
(credits)

Why do troubles come in packages?

2010-11-18T03:45:00.000+08:00

Negative things - work like snowball. Let another few and another few snowflakes get stuck together and you get a snowball rolling down a hillside. Its like the time of the month where everything at once seem to be on the downhill. I feel as though I'm losing my fight to be optimistic, I've always been. I am in so much turmoil. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. Fuck it, shall sleep my sorrows away.

P/S: Friday, please come already? I need you bbyboy :'(

Name it!

2010-11-17T21:40:00.002+08:00

Som bo deeee out there name me some awesome movies for me to watch and bum around at home please :'(

Growing up

2010-11-17T21:29:00.001+08:00

"Remember when getting high meant swinging at the playground. The worst thing you could get from boys was cooties. Mom was your hero. Dad was the boy you were going to marry. Your worst enemies were your siblings. Race issues were who ran the fastest. War was a card game. Cough medicine was the only drug you had ever heard of. Drama was a type of play. Wearing skirts didn't mean you were a slut. When you said wasted you were talking about time. The only thing you smoked was the tires on your bike. The only thing that hurt was skinned knees. The only things that could get broken were your toys. Life was simple and care free. But what I remember the most was wanting to grow up."

M - Ninja hair!

2010-11-17T21:00:00.003+08:00

This is a really old photo of us. At your old house, in your old room, with your stupid ninja hair and my fugly eye infection. Finally got hold of this photo after so long. Because M is unwilling to upload. So I need to do the job by transferring it into my laptop. Happy 16th bbyboy, I love you. Sweet and short x

THIS CAUGHT ME BY SURPIRSE. SERIOUSLY?

2010-11-12T00:20:00.001+08:00

T.G.I.F

2010-11-12T00:17:00.002+08:00

Last week and day of school guys!

The coughs sure did not have any remedy.

2010-11-12T00:10:00.002+08:00

I personally had to blunder through my old world for a tenth of a century before it even began to dawn upon me that ninety-nine times out of a hundred, people dont criticise themselves for anything - regardless how wrong it may be.

Oh yeah, I pampered myself with a book today by Haruki Murakami. My all time favorite author.

M

2010-11-09T18:58:00.001+08:00

Sometimes you just make me want to grab your face and kiss you x

Criticism

2010-11-09T17:10:00.006+08:00

There's a fair share of people enjoying dissing people on the net. Internet criticism/Keyboard warriors is propelled by the lowest common denominator. Formspring comments are at monkey level. These mighty warriors have never got any futher than the front of their computer screen. Their goal? To piss me off even further, to bring me down. Nope, I'm not lashing back at someone hiding their computer screen and sink down to their level to do something like insulting people on the net. I'm already immune to hurtful words like these.

But yet, criticism can be taken as hurtful and demoralizing. If only everyone learns to shut the fuck up and grow up.

Field trip to Marina Bay Sands

2010-11-09T16:30:00.005+08:00

I dread this day to come. Field trip. Sounds stupid, a total waste of time and the worse part is we're required to be all dressed up in formal. But, to my surprise. It was a great exposure and indeed an eye opener.

Jerks

2010-11-08T03:24:00.005+08:00

I've been thinking a lot lately. I felt that I've just had an epiphany. I'm bemoaning that a lot of guys are players. Guys developed the belief that girls are a dime a dozen. And think girls love them and will do anything to be with them. And when they get bored of them, they screw them over. Break up excuses like - afraid of hurting you even more or have the dreaded commitment issues are the worse excuses I've heard in my entire life. The next moment you know, they're chasing after another girl. Spare me those hallmark bullshit please. Just stay away from my girls.

And no, I'm not stereotyping that all guys out there are jerks. Some are jerks by nature. Same way as it is unfair to say all women are manipulative and shallow. I've got to say this in case some faggot out there decides to bash me up with string of vulgarities or saying how ashamed I am to feel this way.

Just saying. I'm so blessed to have M by my side and majority of my friends do not belong to that category x

Awwwwesome Friday night

2010-11-08T02:56:00.003+08:00

I'm the photographer, therefore no photos me of me :'(

x

Naughty naughty boy

2010-11-07T19:31:00.000+08:00

Love y'all

2010-11-04T19:01:00.005+08:00

Cliché but yes, all I want is every single one of you out there to be happy. Cheer up x

Injustice

2010-11-04T17:28:00.003+08:00

THOSE THAT KNOW NOTHING, DON'T ACT LIKE YOU KNOW IT ALL AND ZIP YOUR FUCKING VAGINA. FUCK. SERIOUSLY? THE THOUGHT OF IT MAKES MY BLOOD BOIL. PLEASE SPARE A THOUGHT FOR OTHERS. FUCK FAME AND FORTUNE.

WHY? OF ALL PEOPLE. LIFE IS FUCKING UNFAIR. FUCKING UNFAIR.

Dear iPhone, I miss you.

2010-11-04T16:40:00.002+08:00

In tears

2010-11-04T02:03:00.005+08:00

I just need someone to be there for me.
I don’t think I’m strong enough to build myself back up.

Nobody's here.

Goodbye split ends and hello black hair

2010-11-04T00:30:00.000+08:00

Sad sad November

2010-11-04T00:20:00.005+08:00

In the case of the tragedy D that is not fate but circumstance, albeit, a terrible one. Shit happens. We cannot change the law of nature. Fate is a series of inevitable events. It happens, it’s our destiny. Better to move on and cherish those still alive instead of beat yourself over something you had no idea would've occurred. Time to cherish every moment and live with no regrets.

Just a shoutout to every single one of you out there, I love you guys.

x

No one’s perfect.

2010-11-04T00:05:00.002+08:00

People are so judgmental. They are down your throat at every mistake you make.

M

2010-11-03T02:03:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday M.

To the world, you may be one person. But to me, you are the world. Ever since you came into my life you've become a part of me. No one else has made me feel so alive and so happy. And I know whatever hopes I have, whatever dreams come true, will be more cherished in my life all because of you.

I love you bbyboy

P.S: Make the LV belt and Burberry perfume I bought for you in good use.

On hiatus, busy with overloaded projects.

2010-11-01T23:52:00.001+08:00

Till then x

BLACKBERRY BABY!

2010-10-28T01:21:00.001+08:00

BB PIN: 22A92D04

Add me up guys! :)

Happy Birthday Roxanne

2010-10-22T00:00:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday babe. Greetings from Singapore! We've known each other for fucking 7 years. This year, I'm not by your side to celebrate your birthday with you. I really miss you. Miss those days we had fun during secondary school days. I realise we don't have a decent photo, just only you and me. Hope you enjoy Vancouver and study hard. When you're back, we'll tour all around and have fun all over again.

Hope you see this. I love you.

Make you happy ; Amanda

2010-10-18T23:15:00.000+08:00

Happy pills to keep you happy. When you're sad, pop a pill. I know you're going through your tough times. But, please do cheer up. Every single one of us will be there for you no matter what happens. Do you ever recall the first day we met? Our first hello? The day we became friends? Well, I do and I will always remember. For that very day, I knew I'd cherish you. Love you bbg!

Love you too bagua!

2010-10-18T23:14:00.000+08:00

Mouthwatering. Mom mom.

2010-10-18T22:59:00.003+08:00

Ikea today was motherfucking awesome.

Versatile highlighter

2010-10-18T01:17:00.002+08:00

"Army" HAHAHAHAHA. My life as an army girlfriend.

I wish someone told me I’m pretty. Not smart, not funny, not kind.

2010-10-18T01:05:00.004+08:00

Pretty. And in a good way.

M

2010-10-17T11:53:00.000+08:00

15th.

When I see you, I’m happy, and when you talk to me, even for the smallest time, you send me to the moon. I love you. Plain and simple.

Bee-bee!

2010-10-15T00:50:00.000+08:00

My blood is boiling with anger.

2010-10-14T21:00:00.003+08:00

Can someone fucking enlighten me why do we humans like to jump into conclusion and assume. Please get your fucking facts right before you open your fucking mouth.

Don't get me started............

Gentle reminder to myself

2010-10-14T02:06:00.002+08:00

Do not judge.

Hi.

2010-10-14T01:44:00.000+08:00

Blue

2010-10-14T01:09:00.003+08:00

I'm addicted to steamboat

2010-10-13T23:57:00.003+08:00

This photo don't do justice! This is the aftermath of our steamboat session. We made a big mess. And I've got a secret to share, I eat steamboat at least twice a week. Sigh......... fats.

20th

2010-10-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

Apple pie!

2010-10-12T23:44:00.001+08:00

I'm self conscious about my weight and never felt pretty

2010-10-12T23:33:00.003+08:00

Everytime I look into the mirror, I see an ugly fat blob. I just want to be skinner. I want my BMI to bang smack in the middle of the healthy weight range. All I do is whine, complain and not watch my diet. Talk is cheap. I need to do something about it.

Life's a bitch. Live with it.

Does it? I beg to differ.

2010-10-12T23:30:00.001+08:00

I like being alone.

2010-10-12T01:47:00.001+08:00

Societies condemned them

2010-10-12T01:01:00.000+08:00

What's wrong with ITE? What's so ashamed about it? Its not the educational level that matters. Its the personality. I'll be brutally honest here, I was once like everyone. I looked down on ITE students. Now thinking back, looking down on them is too shallow a thing to. I used to be in ITE too and I looked down on myself.

Back then I played truant often and fare badly for my papers. I almost quit in my final year. But thankfully my classmates and lecturers managed to help me and gave me words of encouragement to pull me though. Come to think of it, I took things for granted back then and realised friendships were much stronger comparing to any others. ITE is where I found all my true friends.

The day Oreo met all my bbgs!

2010-10-12T00:57:00.006+08:00

“It is by chance that we met, by choice that we became friends"

2010-10-11T23:54:00.003+08:00

You're my everything

2010-10-06T23:43:00.002+08:00

You bug me. You make me happy. You make me angry. You make me sad. You make me lonely. You make me feel loved. You make me feel young. You make me feel tired. You make me feel beautiful.

Chanel and Coco

2010-10-06T23:38:00.003+08:00

Say Hi to Oreo

2010-10-04T01:38:00.009+08:00

My little chiwawa.

On hiatus till Tuesday

2010-10-02T16:12:00.000+08:00

Spending more time with M :)

Happy Children's Day

2010-10-01T21:08:00.000+08:00

Missing those carefree days.

Remember,

2010-09-28T09:59:00.000+08:00

the most beautiful things in the world are the most useless; peacocks, and lilies for instance.

Wrapping parcels

2010-09-28T09:48:00.000+08:00

Stick and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me

2010-09-26T20:47:00.002+08:00

I had it all wrong. I was ignorant. Because, sharp end words do hurt.

Pola Snack

2010-09-26T20:45:00.002+08:00

All time favorite snack.

I fucking love Fridays.

2010-09-24T16:16:00.000+08:00

Don't we?

Happy Birthday Boon!

2010-09-24T00:00:00.003+08:00

Us last year.

And us this year.

We often reminiscence about those days we talk on the phone daily and webcam all day and night. Counting down our birthdays together. Finally, it's your special day. I hope you enjoy and like the present I bought for you.

P.S: We should have tomyum bamian soon. Yknow I still love you x infinity.

I feel naked without nail polish on.

2010-09-23T14:41:00.000+08:00

Thoughts

2010-09-23T14:10:00.004+08:00

I don't talk much nowadays, and I'm not really in a talkative mood. I don't know why. I feel caged up and suppressed. However, I know my personality didn't just change over night. It took me a long time to realize that there are so many reasons that I should shut up. Whenever my friends ask me why am I so quiet. I'll just brush it off with a smile and say I'm tired. But am I truly tired?

Maybe not.

School

2010-09-23T14:05:00.002+08:00

I'm fine

2010-09-23T00:05:00.003+08:00

I hate when people ask me how am I. That monotonous response, that ‘Fine thanks, How’re you?’ So forced, so contrived. I don’t even stop to realise that no, I’m not okay, or maybe yes, I’m fucking amazing. I wish people wanted to know how each other were rather than using the question ‘How are you’ as this regularly structured script.

Thanks guys

2010-09-22T23:50:00.004+08:00

Chomp2 on my birthday. Much appreciated, x

No longer brace face

2010-09-22T17:45:00.003+08:00

Say goodbye to my braces, since Mar 2007.

Happy Birthday Jehian!

2010-09-22T01:14:00.004+08:00

Though we meet every single week without fail. But this is how pathetic the amount of photos we've taken together. Happy Birthday Zehian. Yknow we love you.

Emotionally attached

2010-09-22T00:23:00.004+08:00

Certain people will always place a special part in my heart, etched in my mind forever. And it's sad, that they'll never know x

Sigh,

2010-09-22T00:08:00.001+08:00

School is definitely eating me up. And it's only Day 2. I skipped school on Monday, so technically it's only Day 1. I need my holidays remedy.

Kinder Surprise

2010-09-21T23:44:00.006+08:00

Look at that kickass-huge-Kinder Surprise! Thank you Wong Wailing - my most annoying classmate. I swear this is one of the most unexpected gift I've received this year. Thank you so much, as much as I hate to say this. School would be different without you. I'm so glad I met you :)

I've got ugly toes

2010-09-21T01:31:00.000+08:00

Rocking with polka dots Birki's!